"Over the last few years, if I bowl a good ball I just try to think about everything I did during that ball, how it came out of my fingers, how it felt and just try to recreate that over and over again".
As a mother, you try to think of everything.
So I try to think about everything else – the weather, my mother, my last Pap smear..
And as an adoptive mother trying to make sure your child is in touch with his roots, is well-adjusted, and understands the circumstances surrounding his adoption, you try to think of everything x 1000 … but sometimes you miss things.
Try to think of everything you might need when ordering the meal from extra napkins or plates, straws and condiments.
Try to think about everything you usually do, even if you can't cut it out of your routine.
Try to think of everything they could say against the person you want to date, and come up with respectful ways to prove otherwise.
I try to think of something else, but everything goes back to that goddamn kid stabbing herself with a big kitchen knife.
Block out everything else and try to think, feel, see, smell, hear what you are drawing.
Instead of worrying all day about packing and trying to think of everything, pack enough clothing to wear everything twice and just get what you need at your destination.
