There is a danger in a culture in which midwives hesitate to share feelings of guilt, self-blame and self-suspicion of not being competent enough.
Driven by dread that the legacy of self-doubt, suspicion and self-destructive compulsion from my first marriage would cause psychological scarring, or break up my beautiful little family, I have dusted out the issues I swept under the carpet a decade ago and am ready to deal with them.
He eyed my slight, 20-ish self with suspicion.
"I did want that feeling of paranoia, self-doubt, suspicion".
Here "love" embraces hate, loathing, aggression, narcissism, predation, self-pity, suspicion, fury and grief.
And while Young does convey Judas' dangerous and ultimately self-destructive suspicion and greed — through subtle facial gestures that are often obscured by blinding lights — one gets the sense that he would make it with Jesus if he could.
But German-speakers and country people tend to be hostile, in particular those in the heartland cantons such as Uri and Schwyz, imbued with the spirit of self-reliance and suspicion of outsiders traditional in Alpine valleys.
In his role as the primary advocate of the "birther" fiction, he proved himself to be a maestro of the mob mentality, capable of conducting his fans through crescendos of rage and self-pity and suspicion.
She reminds me of women travelling alone late at night on public transport, with that mouse-like air of self-containment and suspicion, as if half expecting someone to try and steal her handbag.
For two decades, all of this has clung to us: unresolved feelings of guilt and grief; rage at authority and loss of personal honor; diminished American self-respect; and suspicion of the neighbor whose experience of the war years was different.
Perhaps what drives the unholy alliance of voyeurism and exhibitionism – the frenzied intrusions of the media as much as the relentless spirit of self-display – is the suspicion that there are places in the self where no telephoto lens or bugging device can reach.
