But once everyone realised I think I was in surgery the next day being operated on". There was further anxiety when his comeback date kept being pushed back.
I realised, I think, even at that early age that opportunities for imitative anarchical expression were going to be severely limited by my misfortune of having been born a particularly weedy girl in early 80s suburbia instead of a sturdy village boy 60 years earlier.
And when I did realise I thought 'oh God, that is scary' especially when I saw the gun and their hands were covered in blood.
"When I realised I was hit, I thought I was dead.
"I realised when I thought about the period that I knew nothing about it".
And I realised I didn't think it should go on.
Over time I realised I needed to think less about the subject and more about the painting.
"When I first started out in athletics I didn't know anything about diet, and it wasn't until a couple of years later that I realised I needed to think about what I was putting in my body.
I think he realised I was growing into my own skin and he was very supportive.
I think I realised I could go to the Olympics when I did my first Olympic distance race in April.
