"But you know, I've realised that's my issue.
It went on tape, he did great – like we knew he would – and after I got to know him, I realised this was standard operating procedure for him.
Behind all I was learning about bayou and factory childhoods and the larger context – industry, state, church, regular media, Fox News – of the lives of those I had come to know lay, I realised, a deep story.
Of course when I got to know Anna, I realised how much hurt her strange upbringing had caused her, not least because her father, Raymond Massey, had walked out when she was three.
I know I didn't realise quite how much infertility had changed me, how much it had soured my outlook on life, until I finally got pregnant after my second attempt at IVF.
I didn't know, I didn't realise I would be at risk, because he's an uncle, he's not my dad and then it was quite a bit of a shock when they said no actually he's part of your family.
It happened to a cousin of his mother's, and he has met no one who knows why: "I realised that when you cannot know the truth, it is only then that you can invent it.
"It's just that I always knew I'd realise one day it is time and once that came to mind I just went through the processes.
I'd been in a comfort zone at Newcastle – it was all I'd ever known – and I realised it was the time in my life to push myself".
These mangees ["imported" partners from South Asia] are a nightmare, you know.' I realise that many of the young men here are no more religiously observant than an equivalent group of white men.
