When I say irrevocably, I mean it.
"To me, Robert and I were irrevocably entwined," Smith writes.
I felt irrevocably grieved, wounded, but a part of my feelings started to tighten; something went dead; something is still crying.
"There was only one saving grace," he wrote in his autobiography Dear Me (1977), which sold a million copies, "and that was that I was irrevocably betrothed to laughter, the sound of which has always seemed to me the most civilised music in the universe".
I am irrevocably different.
I was irrevocably in love with this amazing boy who grew into the best man I've ever known.
When my father died in late 2010 of a sudden heart attack, my driving ambition for material wealth and social status fell in pieces around me. Security, I had irrevocably learned, was an illusion.
And, increasingly, irrevocably, I am a stranger to books, to the long-form text, to the pleasures of leaving myself and inhabiting the free-floating consciousness of another.
It had taken me significantly longer to come to that realization in the area of real estate than it ever had in the area of marriage, but I was finally, irrevocably there.
I'm bound irrevocably to that terrible act, and obligated to the human being I committed it against, in a way that feels separate from my punishment.
