However, taking myself away from that scene, watching the characters and applying my own life's experience participating in and around the violence of war, I grudgingly recognize and must accept the futility of such violence.
The kids, I had to grudgingly acknowledge, were all right.
Still, Molitor -- the one man in uniform the autograph-seeking fan recognized without peeking at his cards -- explained grudgingly that the opportunities for teams with lower payrolls to win a title are rare.
That role was recognized by church and government authorities alike; doubtless sometimes grudgingly as the wanted escaped harsh punishments.
Grudgingly, you know: "You're OK".
Powell went along with this suggested fallback position, but grudgingly: in reply, he wanted foreign service officers to know that the medal, a kind of civilian Purple Heart, was for "recognizing the risks and dangers to all United States government civilians assigned to our embassies and consulates" and not just F.S.O.'s alone.
I say grudgingly, because violence and revenge is such a part of our identity and our culture that I am loathe to give it up, I am afraid to move on, and to recognize the myth of redemptive violence, as exactly that, a myth constructed primarily for the purposes of national, ethnic, sectarian or religious hegemony, dominance and absolution.
Recognize procrastination.
