He said when interviewed that he felt "ghastly" and "desperately sorry", telling officers: "I was a very young man, I was completely out of control and completely out of order, putting it about everywhere".
"If you hire three heavies," she remarked on days when she felt ghastly, "to whack and kick and pummel at the bores, you've got to expect that in their enthusiasm they will inflict a bit of inadvertent damage, too".
To the contrary, I feel the ghastly critical chill of admitting that I was bored by such obvious prestige television, created by people whose work I admire.
Recovering after a stroke, he writes: "I feel pretty ghastly but I have no alternative but to carry on as before.
The Soul has Bandaged moments - When too appalled to stir - She feels some ghastly Fright come up And stop to look at her..
But nothing I ever experienced felt as ghastly, terrifying and complete as the sexual torture and attempted destruction of the female species here.
"But nothing I ever experienced felt as ghastly, terrifying and complete as the sexual torture and attempted destruction of the female species here," she continues.
Most of us find them ghastly; we feel sorrow, disgust, and yearning for revenge: we want to destroy those who delight in killing the innocent.
But not only did I feel I had conquered the ghastly beast when it mattered to me most, I felt I had done it for the last time, because who has time for OCD when you have a newborn demanding your every thought?
"It was so ghastly it didn't feel personal, or personally critical," Beard says now, with the benefit of considered hindsight.
