She recalls travelling to the impoverished black townships, where she experienced a "sense of horror": death swept the communities with such grim consistency that the bereaved themselves had become desensitised.
The effect is often much like that experienced in a horror movie when a house cat jumps out at someone: surprise, fear, then laugh-out-loud relief.
Sebald, or rather the unnamed narrator, starts on a walking tour of England: confronted with both an "unaccustomed sense of freedom" and the "traces of destruction" that mark even the remote Suffolk countryside, he gradually finds himself experiencing a "paralyzing horror".
No one should have to experience such a horror show.
Along with the rest of the world, he had watched as Yugoslavia disintegrated, and as genocide claimed at least 800,000 lives in Rwanda; as well as the obvious horror, he experienced "a profound disappointment, because after the Berlin Wall came down, and we were supposed to be at the end of history, we had this idea that things were going to become peaceful".
And to watch Carrie stumbling out after months of being denied her meds in a Russian jail, and Saul's eyes widening in the dark on a chill Estonian border at the extent of her descent from sanity, is to experience a frisson of horror like few others.
We're grieving collectively, as a nation, and we're experiencing a mixture of horror (from the trauma), fear (which can be controlled in the long term), and anxiety (over the possibility of another attack).
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Sometimes you'll experience a moment of cold horror when you realise that it's 1AM and you've been masturbating endlessly – just, endlessly – because there is literally nothing going on in your life.
Sometimes you'll experience a moment of cold horror when you realize that it's 1 AM, and you've been masturbating endlessly—just, endlessly because there is literally nothing going on in your life.
