Even now he understands that he is with the England squad for Wednesday's friendly against Scotland because of the shortage of options left open to Hodgson when it comes to his strikers.
Now he understood he was right.
Even now, he experiences a recurring nightmare.
Even now, he is sending mixed messages.
Even now he knows no other way.
"Even now, he wanted a towel.
Little did I know he would go so soon, but even now, I understand that he will be assisting me to reach up into the high realms where his radiant form resides to find my own Soul and experience it fully while I'm still here traversing this life on Earth.
When I asked him if the idea would have the Administration's support, he said, "It's hard even now to understand what the White House's economic theory is".
The company's opaque accounting makes it hard even now to understand why it got into trouble, and whether the cause was bad luck or worse (see our special report).
It is a gentle, touching portrait of good people trying to pick up the pieces, after their livelihoods were taken away by larger processes they do not even now fully understand.
I'm not sure even now that I understand what it's about, but I suspect it may be about the agony of writing, creation, the way things fall apart and the danger of change.
