Yet the only really unbearable thing was thinking about my family: what would happen if I didn't pull through?
"One in six Britons will spend time in an intensive care unit and, shocking as it may sound, statistics show that up to three in 10 people admitted do not pull through, causing devastation to families," Dr Montgomery said.
There will always be circumstances in your life where someone doesn't pull through, so you're better off learning how to deal with it now.
We work on our base running in case our bats don't pull through". Crescenta Valley scored three runs in the top of the first inning to grab a 3-0 advantage.
His cancer was more advanced than two other guys in hospital with him and they didn't pull through.
He was embarrassed to admit how nervous he was, but Liza knew it, and reassured him by making gentle fun of him, asking if he had any manuscripts she should burn if he didn't "pull through".
"He had a chance to do something truly special and something very few have done before and be the youngest to accomplish that and he just didn't pull through.
As we pose, I think about how tomorrow I'm going to call my father, and we'll talk for a long time about Big Camilo, and we'll also remember, as we do sometimes, the horrendous night in early '94, when Auntie July called to tell us that Camilo had been hit by a car, and the wretched week when he almost pulled through it but didn't pull through.
"He had a chance to do something truly special and something very few have done before — and be the youngest to accomplish that — and he just didn't pull through.
Still, when she finally did pass, we had all gotten so accustomed to her resiliency and survival that it came as a complete shock when she didn't pull through.
