One key element in the kidnapping, for me at least, is the arousal of high stress levels, a consciousness of genuine fear and difficulty.
When my mother let loose a stream of consciousness list of fears that the world would visit on me for being openly gay – including never finding happiness, or being bashed coming out of a bar with my lover – the one she settled on was "…and you always wanted to be a father".
Yet, despite a clear history of fluctuating consciousness and fear of wind or air stream exposure as well as difficulty swallowing without an obvious cause, specialists (such as, internists, otolaryngologists, neurologists and surgeons) ignored such history and were impressed by the dramatic clinical signs of subcutaneous emphysema and pneumomediastinum.
A year later comes another line, somewhat ominous: "I marry Philip with full consciousness + fear of my will toward self-destructiveness".
Thinking big means operating at a level of consciousness where fear doesn't exist.
Child was strong in so many ways, and her absence of fear and self-consciousness allowed her to express a good cheer and a satisfaction in life that even a five-year-old could feel.
Afterwards, his consciousness has changed, and he acts out of fear, ignorance or both.
Because earlier, higher estimates had taken hold in the public's consciousness, some fear that the lowering of the official count might somehow lessen the scope of the tragedy.
These, he says, all-too-often water the seeds of fear, anger, greed and hatred in our consciousness.
Understand that self-consciousness and a fear of rejection is part of the human experience.
