I am forever monitoring myself for traces of folly, insensitivity, arrogance, false humility, cruelty, stupidity, immaturity and, guess what, I keep finding examples.
I had to monitor myself in real time.
"And I've had to monitor myself, to hold back a bit.
The problem for me and the millions of people living with type one is that too little insulin can kill me, and too much insulin can kill me, so I have to constantly monitor myself to make sure that my blood sugars are in a healthy range.
I wasn't self-absorbed, constantly monitoring myself to see how I was doing.
Rather than recapturing our former glee, I found myself monitoring his responses to me with a sense of hypervigilance that only increased my angst, and his distance.
Then, on learning that the cabinet was not always locked or monitored, I began helping myself to a furtive supply.
"I think it's good that I am being monitored, as I find myself being conscious about how I am driving – for example, my speed or braking.
But the whole experience of pregnancy and childbirth has become so medicalised and closely monitored that I find myself clinging gratefully to this last little pocket of mystery.
I did not enjoy the transparency of such an "open office" design — with passersby stopping to say hello or glance at the game of solitaire left open on my computer screen — but I appreciated the fact that, if I lifted my gaze over the top of my monitor, I found myself looking at a large Mark Rothko print hanging on the opposite wall.
