Though I see myself as non-binary (I go by ze/hir) and I would never define my gender in any way, I still wish I had a dick that I could fuck things with.
But I managed to fuck things up.
I tell you one thing: by the fourth night out, we'll get so goddam smooth that if I don't fuck things up a little on purpose everyone in the audience'll feel cheated, like they haven't seen a live show.
Despite Sarkozy's promises of rupture, his former staffer told me, "He always said, 'We can't go too fast, the French aren't ready for all this reform,' " which the ex-staffer understood to mean, "I don't want to fuck things up, and I want to be reëlected".
She was an unhappy child, attending more than a dozen different schools before leaving permanently at 15: 'I just used to fuck things up for myself.' She'd make the same mistakes wherever she went: finding kids of her age too immature, she'd befriend sixth-formers, who would then leave early to prepare for A levels, leaving her socially stranded.
"I just want him to fuck things up as long as he can".
I'm just hoping that when I turn 28 people don't similarly fuck things up for me, and ruin my status as a boss player.
But it wasn't long before the pain became so overwhelmingly obvious that, in order to keep denying it, I would've had to have done something a lot more drastic than what I eventually did, which was just admit that I'd fucked things up, and that it sucked, but that if I took responsibility for changing, I could meet somebody in future and not fuck things up there.
I mean it's going to royally fuck things up.
But it wasn't long before the pain became so overwhelmingly obvious that, in order to keep denying it, I would've had to have done something a lot more drastic than what I eventually did, which was just admit that I'd fucked things up, and that it sucked, but that if I took responsibility for changing, I could meet somebody in the future and not fuck things up there.
